Hardships

Hi there. I just feel like sharing my thoughts tonight. I just want to talk to myself through this idea is soo crazy! Yes sounds funny but I need to, because I need to make sure that the inner me is okay and I want to know if she (my inner self hahaha ) can still endure the hardships and which to come.

To My Self,

Hi there. Are you okay? How are you? Can you still survive?

Can we still go on with these spices of life? 

I'm so proud of what you become, the years you worked so hard,
 those are unbelievable. When I looked on you 6 years ago, I never 
thought you have the courage to pursue things. 
Your guts made this all possible. 

We can do this. I know God is there, he is testing our faith. 

Just hang in there. Just be there.

From: Me

5.thoughts.inside.my.head:

# 1. WORK. I am currently in-front of my two 24" LCD monitor don't know where to start with this, too much of  to-do's  to be done.  I want to sleep back home. I want some rest. Before I forgot yesterday is our payday.I wasn't happy because nothing's left for myself. I save for my tuition for the next sem, I paid bills, I sent money for my family,Hey Life,  im sooo tired.

# 2. STUDIES. SCHOOOL..... I hate to meet and to be with you......I felt like punishing myself every time I'm with you. But I know someday I'll thank you for the places you can lead me to, just don't be so harsh okay? My calculator and formulas are with me, plus I bought Communications book last week.okay? *(crazy here hhahaha) 

I want to study all the lessons, but I don't have enough time because I'm balancing my time with my work. I envy some of my classmates that they have all their time to study. I want to learn hays...


# 3. FAMILY. I am longing to my eldest brother's presence in our lives. We've lost communication with him for the last 4-5 years. He never said anything. He never called, he never give us any updates on what is happening with him and his family abroad, he never greeted us every special occasions, even Christmas and New Year and the most painful day,  every Mom's birthday, I'm just sad for my Mom. Lord I know you have reasons for this. :(


# 4. FINANCES. I'm so broke.  :( I'm just 21 years old, I can't imagine that life is so hard to maintain. You need to earn to live. But God is my Jehovah Jireh , my provider.

# 5. STRENGTH. I badly need it now. :( I'm on the hardest days of my life, I need strength that comes from you Lord. I am battling with daily issues, needs, tired feet, headaches, financial burdens, relationship problems, work and study.. YES! stress are always on my head.  I'm tired :( #hug

This too shall pass....

                     Note to self....

            

Getting back to work :)

Feel much better now. 

Let's continue LIFE.