A sister is a gift to the heart, a friend to the spirit, a golden thread to the meaning of life. -Isadora James
This blog is dedicated to my Sister. Honestly, I did this blog just to express the sad feeling I have inside. Yes, I was sooo sad, because my sister will be leaving to settle in the province soon with my niece and nephew.
Our Family Background
I am the last born in the family, and I am a menopausal baby, I have 4 sisters and 2 brothers. And I must say, their age is very far from mine. My mom was 42 years old when she got pregnant for me. Do you imagine, what it feels like to grew up without having your brother's and sisters with you? Yes. I grew up without them in the house, because some of them got their own families already, some were already working.So that was our set up.
Since my parent's were old when I am entering elementary and high school, they can't work to send me to school. And my father got paralyzed when he was 45 years old. So I was so young when my father wasn't able to work for our family. That was the time I need my sibling's help in order for me to enter school.
My Sister
I love all of my sisters. But, I must say this sister I am talking about is the one I consider as My 2nd Mom. Her name is Merlyn, But we call her Awe in our family. My Ate Awe was the one who sent me to school from elementary till 1st year college. She is also our bread winner back then. She was not a college graduate but she was working in Intel Philippines for 14 years till it was closed last 2008. So she helped our family so much, even in the last days of my dear father, she never failed to show how she love our family, she is not selfish, she loves us so much. She was able to send me to a private school when I was in High School, can you imagine the heart of my sister? I idolized her sense of responsibility, generosity and her love for our family, most especially to me. <I'm actually crying right now.>
"What I am right now is because of her love for me...
And I will never forget everything she has done to me. "
The Time She Needed Me the Most.My Sister texted me last Sunday , "Pi, Kelangan ko ng kausap..." (I need someone to talk to), When I read that I immediately leave and gone to her house. I saw her, my niece and nephew. I know that she is experiencing some family problems for the last 6 mos. So I already knew what she's going through. But this is the first time I hugged her and cried with her. She don't know what to do, I've seen her hurting, she cried so much. It is very painful for me to see her crying knowing that All I can do was to hug her so tight, remembering all the good things she did for me. I don't want to see her that way, but I was limited to help her. It is so painful.. So so much. When I think all of the things she did, "nahihiya ako kasi wala akong magawa.. "
Thinking that she don't deserve to felt that. And then I went to church. I know God is still there and he knows what he was doing. And I'am always praying for my sister. I want to help her with all I can. I hope someday I can repay the goodness she showed me.
Last afternoon, I talked to her on the phone. She told me that they were leaving soon. to settle in the province with his husband. I know I am happy to know that, but I'am also sad because I will miss my niece and nephew plus her, I know I haven't treated her yet with spa's, restaurants and I want her near to me. I almost cried when I heard that. But what else can I do? She need to be with her family in the province. A place which is so far from us and I might not gonna see her for so long.
I am sad because, I want to atleast gave back the goodness and love she showed me.
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" She planted goodness, love, direction, and dreams in my life.
She is a big part of any success that I might get in the future.
I Salute her Generosity and Her Love for me and our family.
I pray that she may harvest all the good deeds she planted on Us, on ME.
I know God knows everything she did for me.
I will forever Thank my Sister. I am her FAN.
I hope in the future I can help her back.
She is the best sister I could ever have."
I hope I can spend some time with her before she leave especially on her birthday.
I LOVE YOU ATE!!
"She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child." - Barbara Alpert
