Blind Self

Today, I just realized that, there were things about that you need to hear from others, before you know that there is something wrong about you. I was so "hot headed" these past few days, I'm so sensitive that my relationship with  friends became so cold. I never knew I am, till a friend told me this, because we argued on something that should not be an argument in the first place.

Now, I realized that when we encounter problems, we tend to be unaware on how we act/react in-front of our friends and other people closest to us. Sometimes we never know we already hurting them by our words and actions. We are creating a disputes out of nothing. We then actually adding burdens on our mind that will no longer help us.

I blogged today as I realized that I was wrong, I taught I was the one who is hurt, but I figured out that I was the problem, I over think things, I make things more complicated that in return will hit me, in return will be another problem from another problem.

I was overwhelmed with problems, to the point that I can't see that I was not dealing good with others.

I should do something about this, I need to relax, to figure things out, I need to resolve my personal issues.

I should thank you Lord that you had the reason why you let that argument with a friend, for you used him to make me see that blind self inside me. The Best ka talaga Lord!

Reflections: 

          1. Don't make everything so complicated.

                   2. Learn to speak your feelings.

                           3. Don't let your friends be affected by the weight

                                      you were having(problems.).

                                          4. The Lord has his reasons.

                                                       5. Sometimes, other people see things you never
                                                                  know about yourself.

                                                                         6. Trust him, he knows what he was doing.

 Verse for today:

Ecclesiastes 8:6

New International Version (NIV)

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For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter,

    though a person may be weighed down by misery.

    I Love You Lord!

   #Getting back to work, just unloading some insights here! :) Good day!

Hardships

Hi there. I just feel like sharing my thoughts tonight. I just want to talk to myself through this idea is soo crazy! Yes sounds funny but I need to, because I need to make sure that the inner me is okay and I want to know if she (my inner self hahaha ) can still endure the hardships and which to come.

To My Self,

Hi there. Are you okay? How are you? Can you still survive?

Can we still go on with these spices of life? 

I'm so proud of what you become, the years you worked so hard,
 those are unbelievable. When I looked on you 6 years ago, I never 
thought you have the courage to pursue things. 
Your guts made this all possible. 

We can do this. I know God is there, he is testing our faith. 

Just hang in there. Just be there.

From: Me

5.thoughts.inside.my.head:

# 1. WORK. I am currently in-front of my two 24" LCD monitor don't know where to start with this, too much of  to-do's  to be done.  I want to sleep back home. I want some rest. Before I forgot yesterday is our payday.I wasn't happy because nothing's left for myself. I save for my tuition for the next sem, I paid bills, I sent money for my family,Hey Life,  im sooo tired.

# 2. STUDIES. SCHOOOL..... I hate to meet and to be with you......I felt like punishing myself every time I'm with you. But I know someday I'll thank you for the places you can lead me to, just don't be so harsh okay? My calculator and formulas are with me, plus I bought Communications book last week.okay? *(crazy here hhahaha) 

I want to study all the lessons, but I don't have enough time because I'm balancing my time with my work. I envy some of my classmates that they have all their time to study. I want to learn hays...


# 3. FAMILY. I am longing to my eldest brother's presence in our lives. We've lost communication with him for the last 4-5 years. He never said anything. He never called, he never give us any updates on what is happening with him and his family abroad, he never greeted us every special occasions, even Christmas and New Year and the most painful day,  every Mom's birthday, I'm just sad for my Mom. Lord I know you have reasons for this. :(


# 4. FINANCES. I'm so broke.  :( I'm just 21 years old, I can't imagine that life is so hard to maintain. You need to earn to live. But God is my Jehovah Jireh , my provider.

# 5. STRENGTH. I badly need it now. :( I'm on the hardest days of my life, I need strength that comes from you Lord. I am battling with daily issues, needs, tired feet, headaches, financial burdens, relationship problems, work and study.. YES! stress are always on my head.  I'm tired :( #hug

This too shall pass....

                     Note to self....

            

Getting back to work :)

Feel much better now. 

Let's continue LIFE. 

BIRTHDAY DATE WITH MY SISTER

This post was made actually last Monday Oct 1, I just got so busy that's why I posted it just today! :)

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If you have seen my previous  post you will know how happy I am to tell you that I and my sister plus my super bright nephew had the time to bond with each other.

Since tomorrow  is my Sister's birthday and I had a free time to spend last morning, I decided to ask her if she can be with me on a date in a nearby Mall. So she said okay!

Happy Birthday Ate :)

Forgive my face :) Just got a session with  a Dermatologist, warts removed!! Do I look like her?

                                               Here are the pictures we had :) 

           1.  SBARRO: My ate Loves Chicago white Cheese and I told her that I love it too :)

2. Razon's  I definitely love to eat halo-halo here though it is a bit expensive. :))

3. STARBUCKS Though we should have gone to SEATTLE's or COFFEE Bean but my ate insisted, well we have no choice :(

                                            Bonding with my favorite pamangkin!! Thirdie!

We bought 2 SUN CELLULAR sim cards for me and my ate! Well my Mom got jealous, she also want one, I told her Next time!

I also bought a new cell phone hahaha :) I just like a simple one, with 2 slots for sim cards. Anyway, I will buy an expensive phone after grad. I'm so broke these days. I bought it for only 799 php and I am happy with this! very simple!

That's all! Next Next week I 'll be having another bonding with my Sister in a SPA which I bought from TCAT  Philippines . I just want to make more time with her as soon as I can for I will be missing her so much!